Outing

      No Transcendental Impulse but then
      Invaded, sense by sense, and sense by sense again!     
      Confused, harassed, stammering, half-mad, 
      I arrived at a mountain stream's small source  alone
5     Whose each mere moment of dropping flowing 
      By dropping more intensely flows. Heart's-blood
      Stuttered along the tongue of solvent air
      Following out the stream's wanderings apace
      As if my liquid's hush through every cataract
10    And canyon-enhancing rivulet did move;
      What weariness then penetrated every limb
      Which had flung itself the whole blue morning  through       
      Like a ceaseless wheel! I lay a lonesome hour
      Upon a table of stone spined just so long
15    As myself from dead heel to skull-top
      Imagining its travel! By my veins
      The moss-indentured rock with iron force
      Is cracked, a hammering flow enveloping the mass
      With pale empurplings and smooth-prompting bulbs of glass       
20    That maturer nature had given a more rugged  touch.
      So I lay sun-warmed upon that human stone,
      Neither foot nor head beyond its grating cradle,
      Until all that made me I un-made
      Then wove again together in eye and ear;
25    As if sunlight spoke and sound gave voice in  light,
      All these before me in hazeless dazzle floated  free
      And I consigned them to their Liberty!
      My rushing emerging blood swept past
      Cochlea and ear-drum in bird-like thrum:
30    Stream on stream ascended purer air in song
      Til all was bathed by part, the unaccustomed whole
      Of oceans leaping from my spring! each martlet  that sang       
      Told some note of me; myself had stained
      Sky's unstarred majesty with pinks, and in a wink
35    Sent each sense sharpened as it spread
      From azure zones of whispered fire
      To the old pond's own cool shadow of repose
      Til every busy sound was somewhat tinged with red
      And every shifting leaf, dew-shadowed as they  were,
40    Burned outlined by that bright delight
      Their own laughing motion shucked from them in  sound.       
      Then a purple rain, it seemed, descended
      In answering haloes shaken from the sun
      And broke in its descent to mist, hallowing all.
45    No part of the under-sky receded
      From that pursuant touch,-- but rather
      Rose to its own undoing in erotic rapture
      As drones to their honey-loving maiden-queen
      Lift translucent wings in flight;
50    Leaf and leaf in murmuring applause
      Stretched on each twig-end toward that sky!
      The stone that held my casing seemed more  up-raised       
      And the low appearance of the swimming sun
      Took on a duskier and a closer tone
55    As if it wished to immerse itself again!
      Strange mist was everywhere, endowing each
      Glowing glen that lay as little as a lens.
      Strange mist had wrapped the very bowsprit of the  rock!     
      My own skin was mist-engrafted!
60    Within, my own departing heart,---
      So whirled with-in and -out with the luminous,---
      As pulsant globe and center now resolved.
      And on this thought my mind no longer moved,
      By spells of rapt intransigence inly held,
65    Til all that had its faultless action once impelled
      Conjoined to conjure pause; sweet was the wind
      That kissed my aching lungs with such sweet  breath!
      All piny, with some sunny hawthorne scenting  mixed,       
      ---Even still that air is fresh within me,
70    Even still do I desire the clearness I had then!---
      For one hour's welter of such unwon wealth!---
      For then I had found out-- in clearness still
      Do I see it!-- motive of moon and sun and sincerer  stars,     
      Our perpetual guest, the unsullied source of glory
75    That limned my out-flowing veins in rivers'-light!
      Out, out of the very center where my spirit slept
      Flood called out to flood and flood responded
      Out-pouring Life! there, there are the harmonies!
      There the endless systems counted back to One!
80    There the measureless Space contented
      To a water-drop! There echoings on echoings
      By their velvet source are hushed!
      Anguish and insistence vanquished by a touch!
      Nightmares and chimeras chastized by a love
85    The soul's own shaping power makes animate!

 

From the collection "Ascent"

Written by Gregg Glory [Gregg G. Brown]

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