A Lighter Ballast

      To balance a friendship's difficult.
      To give's difficult, to take's difficult,
      Difficult to offer the enduring cure
      To caustic inward hurt and to outward time
5     Where nothing's ever certain and less is sure.
      One must always be willing to offer a sacrifice--
      A clattering frag of the poor apportioned self let go,
      Give the altar fire a fist of flour and rice
      Thrown into the forward void of hope. An ego
10    Can be a convenient casualty at three.
      A memory of wiped eyes deployed at four
      Can settle noon's uneasy moment, and by jettisoning restore 
      A lighter ballast to trim ship and sail on.    
      A calm cool hand on a vomiting neck is displaced
15    By the necessary zero, placeholding what's gone.
      Jaded jokes traded over a toke and a drink,
      The topical hour tossed off in a walk
      That helps a mellow pair of humans to think--
      All can be branded and bundled and bade fair farewell:
20    Your cost of continuing's their going to Hell.
      Lose it and be happy at the loss,
      Pay it and be damned the cost.
      Friendships no less than civil societies
      Send out their draft notices to the soon-to-be-lost;
25    Death's the price to maintain us at our ease.
      An accurate accounting is friendship's worst curse
      For, accurately speaking, however equit-
      Able in feeling, all friendships divide at
      The punctual inequality of a hearse.
30    So joy as you may and addition be damned.
      Don't look to friends for your conclusions       
      While you nod and hum at their confusions
      (As maybe they will nod and hum at yours)
      And in this charmed essential interchange
35    Do not dream to esteem yourself the worse
      Because of angry antsy things either said or did
      (What dark horrors brightly shown, what honors hid).
      After the humiliation in the kitchen
      A friend will still do as friendship always bids:
40    Exert persistent force for modest growth
                inexorably as lichen.

 

From the collection "The Sword Inside"

Written by Gregg Glory [Gregg G. Brown]

More information available on gregglory.com.